I decided to go back to school after being on hiatus for nine years. It is not easy; I had to give up a lot of things to pursue going back to school. Weekly I am faced with challenges, days I want to give up and just curl up in a ball and cry. For the most part I multitask crying and pushing through no matter how hard things are.
For the past month, I have been dealing with lower back pain. My muscles tighten up whenever I think too much; relaxing while facing challenges is my biggest challenge. This week the back pain intensified to the point that I could not move out of bed. I was in tears because I am so close to finishing this semester and I feel this stress issue is ruining my life.
I forced myself out of bed today even though I did not want to get out of bed. I have to go to a biology lab at 6PM tonight and it is required. I CANNOT MISS THIS CLASS. So I am pushing along and the whole time getting there I am crying because I am in physical pain and to top off the hell I have PMS.
Earlier this week I reopen a doodling blog. I skipped the day I was immobile and today I forced myself to doodle. I briefly felt good again and came to terms this is all a phase. It is only one more week of school before winter break. I can do this!
PS
Coffee relieves the back pain. Not the 400 mg of ibuprofen.
